Beneatha Journal Entry

Dear Journal,

I am completely unsatisfied with how my life is going on right now. In the beginning, I was extremly content when mama got her money in the mail, I was really excited when I found out that she had bought that money on a new house so that our family can actually have our own rooms and that we could finally breathe instead of being stuck in the little house. In fact, Mama has extra money left for my medical school and she had trusted Walter it. I was also excited about moving to the new house on four o six Clybourne Park...until after today's events. Towards the afternoon, before we were expecting the moving men to come, a white man, named Mr. Lidner, had come to our day indicating that he wanted to talk to us about the new house mama just bought in Clybourne Park. At first, I was suspicious of what he came to our house for, and my suspicions turned out to be correct. Mr. Lidner had told us that he "feared" our lives would be in danger because we are a black family moving into a white community. I know that that Mr. Lidner probably does not even care about our lives, he just wanted us out of the community and wanted to keep the community segregated and not interracial. There is a good side to the deal, he was willing to buy the house back for more money than we had paid for it. I am not sure what our family will do and I am going to leave this decision to Mama, because it is her inheritance money. Our family was a little nervous about moving in, but that it was not until the following events, that we were distraught. Bobo had come a while after Mr. Lidner had left to talk about the liquor store deal, when I saw Bobo's face I knew something was wrong immediately. Bobo and Walter talked for a while and discussed, Walter had never looked happier, until Bobo told Walter that the money that he and Walter had invested was taken by Willy, but apparently Willy ditched and took off with the money. I am not extremly distraught now, especially after when Walter told us that he had spent my medical school money on the investment as well. How could Walter do such thing?! It was foolish and stupid of him to invest in a thing that did not guarantee money back. I hate Walter!!! He has crushed my dreams of becoming a doctor and going into the medical field. Thanks to him, I cannot pay for my college and education, I am frustrated at him. I don't know what I am going to do now.